I got up at 3:30 to catch my 6:30am flight out of the Ontario airport, which is like LA, but without the cluster fuck. I’m sitting at Carl’s Jr. drinking mediocre coffee and attempting to eat a breakfast sandwich that looks kind of suspicious. Elvis’s Blue Christmas is playing, which seems appropriate. Traveling alone kind of amplifies all these recent woes.
On Saturday night I called my mom, SOBBING about B3 and how much I was missing him. She said something to me that was kind of perfect. I said to her that I felt guilty for being so upset because it had only been two months and lots of people go through much more serious breakups/divorces so what was I really so upset about because in the grand scheme of things it shouldn’t be that big of a deal. She said, “yes but it’s YOUR grand scheme of things and that’s why it’s a dig deal.” I guess we really need to remember that apologizing for our feelings is pointless because they are ours and no one else’s.
This is something I hope we all can remember. Merry Christmas, everyone!
A Series of Very Bad Decisions 
Reva,
First & foremost, sorry about the laptop. Data loss and loss of laptop usage sucks, I’ve been there…
Secondly, I do hope your recent woes will disappear sooner rather than later. Travel safe out there.
3rd, you never fail to entertain with your blog; my adventures will always pale in comparison to yours.
Fourth and finally….Merry Christmas/Happy Holidaze to you, your fam, your friends and your fans!
Until Whenever,
RJDS
great perspective on the grand scheme of things. i’ll have to keep it in mind for sure when i start wondering why i’m making a big deal about stuff.